~ WHY? ~

 

 

Why?  After 16yrs I'm asking "Why?"  I always thought.."Why not you?" I accepted that I, in my heart know that with the fall of man came sin and with sin came diseases.  I know I, myself didn't cause this disease and I understand that God loves me and will be with me.  It doesn't change the fact that the doctors don't give me much hope and my hope comes from God...but..it doesn't change the fact that I and loosing the use of my fingers. 

My question yesterday to the OT was..will I have dangling appendages?  She said like "jellyfish fingers"? What? What the heck? awww..  She had to be straight with me and it could end up that way.  She said (not the doctor, he had no solution) they could at that point replace all my joints!  OMGosh..the thought of all this has me overwhelmed. God gave me the talent, did I use it for Him when I could?? What will happen to me, it seems to be progressing faster eating up my connective tissues  After asking "isn't there anything I can do to help"  she suggested some finger exercises to retain the little muscle I have left.  Why didn't my doctor or any other OT suggest that long time ago?  I NEED a miracle!

After having a pity party I figured I'd use them as long as I could and put my feelings into my art.

As always, thank you so much for visiting my blog and if you would please leave even a short note to say you've been here.  I sure could use a cheer.

Comments

[Lori Nowak]

Judy: Your work is beautiful and your heart is full. Remember, Jeremiah 29: 11-12 That God has a purpose for your life, and will give you hope and and a future. Speak healing verses out loud. Do this daily and repeatedly. They should be said outloud in order to release the Power God has placed in His Holy Word. There is life and death in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat it's fruit. Does that make sense? Your fruit is from the faith you speak. Try it, God's Word is truth.

[Holly]

Judy~
hugs to you!! When I was young, it never occurred to me that "something" bad would happen and when it did, I was really taken off guard. It's a process and God will continue to meet you at every turn and giving you inspiration and hope. You are amazing!! Your art reflects the fact that you continue to allow God to work through you.
blessings dear one!

[Dawn Gold]

Judy I am amazed at you...truly, because the art you create is brilliant...and now to me it is doubly awesome because you create whilst enduring your illness....

I think Gods plan for you is that you inspire, seriously, if you can push yourself to create as you do this can only inspire others to think...if Judy an do it, then so can I...

You have risen in my estimation....and let me tell you you were already up there for me.

Keep creating and inspiring hugs xxxx Dawn

[Antje Bendfeldt]

Dear Judy, I just found your blog because your painting touches me so much. I read about your hands and I am so, so sorry. I can´t explain in english.
I love your dolls so much. The mermaid and Frida, they are amazing.
Thank you for sharing this my friend.
Hugs
Antje

[Bella]

oh honey~ this breaks my heart to the core. I ask the same question..WHY!!!!!???

i love you so

[Ruth Lagonegro]

The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms. He will drive out your enemy before you, saying, "Destroy him!" (Deuteronomy 33:27) The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: "I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness." (Jeremiah 31:3) There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear. (I John 4:18)

Fear is your enemy. God loves you everlastingly. Fear has no place in God's love. He will drive out your fear. I don't know if He'll miraculously heal you; I don't know how long He will lessen the physical deterioration. But I do know He loves you and He will drive out your fear. Rest in His everlasting arms. Hugs to you Judy! Love, Ruth